The New Beginning

                    Today, I turned a new leaf.

 The fire burning in my soul is finally extinguished.

             It did leave burns, It did leave marks.

  The damage caused is irreversible. But this doesn’t

                     mean it can’t be repaired.

           Once upon a time, I was a strong girl.

Hurricane, flood, nothing could wipe that strength away from me.

But, all of the sudden I found myself surrounded with dark clouds,

                The dark clouds of melancholia.

I was lost, fighting each second, to find my way out.

       It seemed as if all my efforts went in vain.

It felt as if I was thrown into the sea, not knowing how to swim.

                           I felt suffocated.

                There was avalanche of panic.

              But no one was there to save me.

                  I was alone, all to myself.

           No one could save me but myself.

I put myself together and escaped from the cage of utmost

                              dismay.

I experienced depression, insomnia,loneliness and

                           self-hatred.

          But it failed to break me apart

       Because today, I turned a new leaf.

 

The Walk

I still remember the walk I took,

After my school, towards the forest.

The magnificent beauty in every nook,

Mesmerised me like a song to chorist.

 

The trees, the grass and the flowers

Were looking so beautiful.

Seemed like blissful showers,

Under which hours could be delightful.

 

Under the spell of bountiful nature,

I got disturbed by the ring of my duties,

Telling me to watch my time and be mature,

Confronted by real life cruelties.

 

At that point, the bitter dogma was realised,

Life is a race and many are to be beaten.

There is no time for things to be relished,

Save yourselves from being eaten.

Is Age Just an Illusion?

You are never too old or too young…

A very popular quotation-“Age is just a number”. Everyone has heard about it but they don’t realise the true meaning of it. Aging is based on empirical system of concept of time. Time was in the past, present and even in future. It was there even before humans. Early man didn’t know aging. But he knew time by the tradition of Sun and Moon. Then came the concept of human lifespan. 

This all came to my mind when I realised it’s too late to pursue the college of my dreams. Where I wanted to go since childhood. Criticism took over me and I didn’t apply. Only because it wasn’t linked with academics? It’s ok and I don’t regret it. I don’t need a degree to be a designer. And then, this idea struck me. Age can’t define me. I’ll never be too old or yoo young. It’s just an illusion. Many would say aging is a phenomena and not a theory. It’s true. I agree. But what matters is the perception. To look at a thing, there can be only two ways: scientific and natural. I look at age from my mind, heartand soul. My body may tell how old I am but it’s never too old for anything. I am eighteen. Presently, I am too old to start learning ballet and at the same time I am too young to be the president of the country. Isn’t it an illusion? How can I be too young and old at the same time? Does age really matters?

What I want to convey is the idea of not giving up on something just because you think you are too old or young for it. I agree it can’t be applied to each and every case. You can’t drink before legal age. I am not trying to convey that. But to polish and acquiring skills. What matters is your mental age. My face may say I am really young but I know I am mature enough to make sensible decisions. The maturity of your mind has nothing to do with your body aging. Youth can never leave you, if you stay young at heart. Someday, I’ll turn 81 but I’ll never lose my 18 year old mind.