The New Beginning

                    Today, I turned a new leaf.

 The fire burning in my soul is finally extinguished.

             It did leave burns, It did leave marks.

  The damage caused is irreversible. But this doesn’t

                     mean it can’t be repaired.

           Once upon a time, I was a strong girl.

Hurricane, flood, nothing could wipe that strength away from me.

But, all of the sudden I found myself surrounded with dark clouds,

                The dark clouds of melancholia.

I was lost, fighting each second, to find my way out.

       It seemed as if all my efforts went in vain.

It felt as if I was thrown into the sea, not knowing how to swim.

                           I felt suffocated.

                There was avalanche of panic.

              But no one was there to save me.

                  I was alone, all to myself.

           No one could save me but myself.

I put myself together and escaped from the cage of utmost

                              dismay.

I experienced depression, insomnia,loneliness and

                           self-hatred.

          But it failed to break me apart

       Because today, I turned a new leaf.

 

Every Cloud Has A silver Lining

‘Every cloud has a silver lining’- the most contradictory idiom, according to me. It is one of the most popular sayings which means never lose hope, difficult today leads to better tomorrow. The origin of the idiom traces back to 1634 and was given by John Milton.

After this, so many similar meaning idioms came such as, ‘After storm comes the calm’, ‘whatever happens, happens for good’,’every negative occurrence has a positive aspect to it’ etc.

Well those bad times can be well compared to the clouds.But sometimes those dark clouds just lead to a big storm which leaves huge destruction. The destruction caused is irrevocable. Even if it could be reverse, it just takes a lot of time and sometimes leaves permanent damage.  The damage caused is heartbreaking and sometimes leads to death.

The dark clouds revolving around the mind can be depressing. It is up to a person how they shoo the dark clouds away so the Sun can shine happily again. It is the time when everything feels irritating and you just don’t feel like doing anything. Deep inside there is a realisation that it’s just simply waste of time and you are the one who has to put that realisation to action. It requires will power. Just take an initiative. It’s easy to say than do. But trust me, the same is happening to me. Just waiting for the storm to get over. It’s even more frustrating when you forcefully do a work but that is the first step.

I may find the idiom contradicting and not so true but there is no harm in trying. I guess the storm will be over soon and I will see the Sun shining again.

Paper Towns

This blog is inspired from the book ‘Paper Towns’ by ‘John Green’. The novel is about a girl named Margo.

Paper Town is the fake town created by map makers. They put fake bridges and landmarks to ensure that their work hasn’t been copied.

The concept put me into deep thinking. Do humans have tendency to create their own paper town? Does every person creates his own world of expectations, perceptions etc?

Utopian Dreams

Writing about dreams is one of my favorite topic. It’s actually every aspiring person’s favorite topic. But sometimes we have tendency of dreaming something or imagining a pitch perfect situation which is only possible in a Utopian world. Dreaming big is never wrong. Actually it is good. If you will set high standards, you may not land on it but maybe somewhere near it which is better than average and regular goal.

This game of life may put you into different scenarios. But it’s never bad to take up challenges and stand up to them. We all dream about everything being perfect and also imagine the scenario in our mind, the series of things that will and should occur. If the case wasn’t as we imagined, it may seem like a state of dystopia. Disappointment is a natural psychological stress bound to every single human. It’s totally normal to feel it and go through it. Everything can’t go as expected. Maybe this is the reason why they say, “expectations lead to disappointment”. The idea of quote is entirely from what we understand. It actually means that one should be self contented.

Being self contended is not an easy task as even economics say that human wants are unlimited. There is no limit to the desires of a human being. Maybe that’s why there is a difference between human being and “being human“. Maybe our desires sometimes turn us into narcissist monster. Self contentment is the state of being happy with what all one has.

Sometimes, our dreams may not turn into reality. But that doesn’t mean one should not try for impossible. Creating a utopian society is the ultimate goal.

DREAMS

Dreams…

Dreams….are they our inner voice? … imagination? What are they?

Dreams have been basically described as succesion of images, emotions, interpretations occurring in back of our mind during certain stages of sleep. Dreams have been a controversial topic which have been linked to many mythological and religious context. It has been an attraction for acientific research. Nobody is quite sure about why they happen.
We are able to see dreams because of rapid eye movements(REMs). We are wll aware of dreaming, a common thing which we all experience and that is the reason it raises so much curiosity. Don’t you feel that sometimes dreams are just weird. They could be nightmares, prophetic dreams, wet dreams even. 

According to some religious context, dreams are a kind of omen. You can interpret it through symbols shown.

For example, I dreamt about bring bitten by dogs again and again and that means being betrayed. But I dont know till what extent it was true. The other time i dreamt of being cinderella. This was weird. It had mwny intepretations. One said that I am being not appreciated to the extent I should be whereas other said that my life will change for better. 

Don’t you feel sometimes oh this event has happened before. People term it as prophetic dream. A dream in which you can see future. Dreams are due to sub consciousness. Human brain is powerful and undiscovered. 

Daydreaming is another thing. Which basically says you dont need to shut your eyes for dreaming. You can get lost in your own world of imagination. Well its my favourite thing to do in class. Pretty amazing, isn’t it?

Well this is an on going topic but the topic which puts me in total curiosity because my dreams are totally weird linked by nothing.