The New Beginning

                    Today, I turned a new leaf.

 The fire burning in my soul is finally extinguished.

             It did leave burns, It did leave marks.

  The damage caused is irreversible. But this doesn’t

                     mean it can’t be repaired.

           Once upon a time, I was a strong girl.

Hurricane, flood, nothing could wipe that strength away from me.

But, all of the sudden I found myself surrounded with dark clouds,

                The dark clouds of melancholia.

I was lost, fighting each second, to find my way out.

       It seemed as if all my efforts went in vain.

It felt as if I was thrown into the sea, not knowing how to swim.

                           I felt suffocated.

                There was avalanche of panic.

              But no one was there to save me.

                  I was alone, all to myself.

           No one could save me but myself.

I put myself together and escaped from the cage of utmost

                              dismay.

I experienced depression, insomnia,loneliness and

                           self-hatred.

          But it failed to break me apart

       Because today, I turned a new leaf.

 

Every Cloud Has A silver Lining

‘Every cloud has a silver lining’- the most contradictory idiom, according to me. It is one of the most popular sayings which means never lose hope, difficult today leads to better tomorrow. The origin of the idiom traces back to 1634 and was given by John Milton.

After this, so many similar meaning idioms came such as, ‘After storm comes the calm’, ‘whatever happens, happens for good’,’every negative occurrence has a positive aspect to it’ etc.

Well those bad times can be well compared to the clouds.But sometimes those dark clouds just lead to a big storm which leaves huge destruction. The destruction caused is irrevocable. Even if it could be reverse, it just takes a lot of time and sometimes leaves permanent damage.  The damage caused is heartbreaking and sometimes leads to death.

The dark clouds revolving around the mind can be depressing. It is up to a person how they shoo the dark clouds away so the Sun can shine happily again. It is the time when everything feels irritating and you just don’t feel like doing anything. Deep inside there is a realisation that it’s just simply waste of time and you are the one who has to put that realisation to action. It requires will power. Just take an initiative. It’s easy to say than do. But trust me, the same is happening to me. Just waiting for the storm to get over. It’s even more frustrating when you forcefully do a work but that is the first step.

I may find the idiom contradicting and not so true but there is no harm in trying. I guess the storm will be over soon and I will see the Sun shining again.

Paper Towns

This blog is inspired from the book ‘Paper Towns’ by ‘John Green’. The novel is about a girl named Margo.

Paper Town is the fake town created by map makers. They put fake bridges and landmarks to ensure that their work hasn’t been copied.

The concept put me into deep thinking. Do humans have tendency to create their own paper town? Does every person creates his own world of expectations, perceptions etc?